You can smell the alcohol in my room, I don't feel too good and probably shouldn't drink. It only makes me more emotional and makes me feel shit, I feel like I can't do anything right lately and that just everything I do goes totally wrong...

I am also thinking what the fuck am I doing on this planet?! Why do I exist? I feel useless, when I was younger I had everything, made lots of fun, did great in school without too much effort, had a superb social life but now I am not happy at all!

Sometimes I think what if I would just drop down dead suddenly, who would care?

Fucking emo post, isn't it? aargh, pouring myself some more alcohol...