I wrote a letter, well actually I wrote it one week ago and now I wrote it again because the other one sucked I think. Still have to send it, maybe I'll do it soon or maybe it will just float around for a while...

It was hard to get it on paper, there was so much to say but I think saying all that stuff is useless as she wouldn't care anyways. Why do I miss her? I never met her. Why did I get so attached? Was she really that special? It was something that evolved over time and yes she was damn special to me for some reason, she was just amazing if I had to describe it in one word.

All the talks we had, the laughs, the care, just everything meant so much to me for some weird reason. You could say she was someone I loved, like a really good friend and that's also what she said, that I was a good friend to her. I can sit her whining but it won't help just like the letter won't help shit, it'll only arrive in several weeks or months... needs to go to her parents first and they'll have to send it on to australia, maybe it will never get there and maybe I'll never speak with her again.

Out of all those people I lost in my life she is the one I really miss the most while she is also the one I never met and also the one that was most far away.

If there really is a God will He please help me. I really miss her.

edit: forget the last sentence, even if he was there he wouldn't help me with my stupid problems.